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Can a heart ever be unworthy of love?

Love.

Some kind of wonderful.

Cursing the evil.

Iccck! My eyes are all squidgy and blurry from all the white lights and headaches.

I've cut ties with some of my closest friends. Something I didn't think I'd ever really do, but after the months of not making an effort, being ignored and shitty support, it's quite simply the best decision I've made in a long time.

This year is a year of change for me. So much to see and do. Experiences to be had, people to meet and opportunities to cease.

I'll be revamping this blog...more pictures, more regular posts and most of all, interesting write up's, which this thing is lacking.

Working at Mr.V for the rest of the afternoon, then off to do a supermarket shop and then attempting to whip a Nigella Lawson inspired creation/burn the apartment down. Stay tuned!

Why I love New York

The Jazz Clubs in Harlem, The Brooklyn Bridge, The Squirrels in Central Park, The ability to buy a hotdog from a street vendor at 2 in the morning, The National Comedy Theatre, The shopping in Soho/Nolita/Tribeca, The New Yorken accent, Dylan's Candy Store, The ridiculously large Pizza slices, the colourful innhabitants, the fact that no matter how many art galleries you've seen, there's always a million more out there in the city waiting for you to explore, The basketball games at Madison Square Garden, The insane, drug-fueled taxi drivers, The Wholefood Market, The millions of different TV and Movie locations you recognize around the city (30 rock, Sex and the City, Seinfield, just to name a few...), the urbane culture, the vivacious financial district, Pinkberry, the effortlessly cool locals and the feeling that you're part of something unique, big and new just by being there. Everything is inspiring.

48 minutes

Late night at work and it's deeeeeeeeaaad. We've had 2 customers in the past 3 hours...so I figured I'd give some blog love. Firstly, I LOVE my job, I may have mentioned that earlier...either way, I need to reinforce how much I love my job, I feel extremely grateful for it.

I have some new adventures in the mix which I'm quite excited about..so stay tuned! Don't want to say too much about them yet, rather wait and see how things pan out and then tell my tales.

Super excited for New York...it'll be my first White Christmas and to have it with my family is quite brilliant :)

I love my mum. I mean really love her, she's an absolutely incredible woman, and a total inspiration. She's just so smart and funny and intelligent and you know what? Cool too, I mean I took her to see Zombieland last weekend and most mum's I know would be offended by some of the scenes in that flick, by my mum? No way, she laughed her head off the whole way through. Hearing her laugh makes me laugh, I sound like I'm 5 years old...but I'm not, I just really love my mum and wanted to let the world know. We had a big chat this morning about relationships, love and dating. I learnt that my father dated a girl for 6 years before he met my mum. He was 31 and she was 27, I just can't imagine my dad dating another woman before my mother. Mum's first proper relationship wasn't till she met dad, crazzzy!

Ok reading that back...I sound like the son in the film 'The Castle'...which incidently I watched last week....anyway

I gotta cash up :D

CIAAAAAOO!

The Bright Lights

Is doesn't take long for things to come crashing down.

Relationship = over.

However, no regrets, I learnt a lot from it, especially about myself, which I didn't think I would.

I've now set out to do as much as I can in my lifetime.

New Leaf and new goals. Try everything at least once.

Went to a 'restorative yoga' class on Monday. It's basically like relaxation yoga and although at the time I didn't think it was doing much, I slept like a log that night. So restorative yoga = my new love.

Other things I plan to do in the next few weeks include - an Art class on Sunday, Salsa class on Wednesday, A private tennis lesson, a cooking class and attending a poetry reading. If I don't like it, then I never have to do it again. That's the deal.

I also NEED to get my manual camera fixed, I haven't done any photography in months and I miss it!

Some other bigger goals I want to get on to include getting a part in a play, writing a script, reading a book ( I know, sounds retarded, but I haven't read a book cover to cover in awhile) and picking up guitar again.

I need changes like this is my life to get myself motivated. I'm v. excited for the near future.

Will blog more later, must run to work!

Ciao,

Francesca x

G'dayyy!

Wa wa wee wa, it's been a while since I've blogafied.

Quite a bit to tell..

I have a job! FINALLY! I'm working full time at Mr. Vintage for the Summer, it's a t-shirt business which specializes in NZ designs, loooove it!

I'm currently in Sydney for a couple days with mum and we've done ENDLESS amounts of shopping. It was 41 degrees celcius yesterday, when you stepped out of the air conditioning it felt like you were standing right next to a car exhaust pipe, except it's all over your body and the feeling didn't go away.

We saw the bats fly over the city, which was incredible, these bats were the size of seagulls, I was in awe! It was quite a sight to see them soar over the red dusk sky.

Mum and I realised that the Australian Idol finale was being held at the Sydney Opera House last night, they had an amazing firework display, it was the perfect way to end the balmy summer night.

I've now been in a relationship for 2 months, which for me is amazing. I'm not use to being attached to someone, or being someone's 'something', but I'm enjoying learning new things with the person that I'm with. In the past I've only been able to share intimate things with close friends, but to now being able to share things with someone I'm even closer to is quite exquisite.

I'm currently reading 'The Picture of Dorian Grey' by Oscar Wilde, what a fabulous book! It's so beautiful and poetic, I recommend it to everyone, I wish more writers would write with such detail, it's stupendous.

Next year I have decided to move out of home and move into an apartment with two of my best friends...who have never met one another... one is Andrea, a Texan who I met while on exchange in Austin who is coming to NZ to study in Auckland for the semester and the other Jordan, a New Zealand actor who has decided to give a crack a unversity next year. These two people mean the absolute world to me and I love them both dearly, I'm curious to see if they will become as close with each other as I have with them. They're both very different..

Finally, upon my return to Auckland from Sydney, I plan to start working like a dog and saving like crazy for New York. I'm disgustingly spoilt. I'm going to New York for Christmas and New Years and I couldn't be more excited. The idea of winter, New York and celebrating is just too good to be true. I'm so fortunate and grateful to have such a wonderful life.

I've also decided I want to get more penpals. I already have one from Texas and Croatia and I love knowing what they're up to and what's going on in their lives, but to me, the more the merrier :) I want to have pen pals from all over the world, I love learning about new cultures and the different lives people lead. I am a citizen of the world!

So my search begins...

Sorry if my grammar has been shocking in this post, I'm a little tired with the time difference and what not, I know it's only a 2 hour difference, but it's still taking it's toll!

Adios!

Francesca x